Dear Anita

I can’t believe what a coincidence this is but I just finished my 10-15 minute meditation where I concentrated on my breathing. I also put on my headphones and listened to a brainwave mp3 from an app I downloaded cause I have a noisy enviroment. All in all it was really hard to focus, and I noticed like the last time I try to meditate that my mind is really caotic and not peacefull at all.

But this time when I concentrated on my breathing, it was much easier for me and I felt such peace within me that I haven’t felt for a long time (like for 2 months since the break up). I’ve been struggling with my toughts and this peace gave me a break from all that stress and I gotta tell you I really do feel better.

It wasn’t clear to me what I should do and how to continue with my life, but now I think I found something I would like to pursue, and it’s my development as a man, in both physical and mental ways. I realized that I don’t want to feel this way and that I’m the one who causes this pain I feel. Cause that person I miss is gone, and the only thing I miss is the memory.

I can’t tell you I’m over her a 100% but I feel better and it made me want to meditate forever. While I’m aware that’s not possible, it’s possible for me to do it on a daily basis. Also I decided I want to be financially independent, and so I decided to lear as much as possible about stocks and the stock market and make something from the money I have roght now. It has been done before by others, it can be done again by me.

I worked before on myself, but I haven’t felt it like just now. The one thing that worries me is the fading of the enthusiasm I just got, but I still won’t give up. Just cause one person decided not to share their life path with me, doesn’t mean I should feel bad and stop developing myself. It still hurts but I’m counting on the fact that everybody keeps telling me., that time will heal all wounds and that I’ll get over it.

Thank you again very much for all your help. If you got any more tips and advice for me, I’m open for everything. 🙂