Hi, amethystt. I’m sorry about you and your friend. I’ve had similar experiences and while some were easy tolet go others were quite painful. I’m sorry you feel lonely. I am prone to feeling like that too sometimes, and those times no matter how much time I spend with my friends I can’t seem to feel content. Of course the reasons for this might be different in your case, but with me I feel the problem is that I feel lonely in my own company.

Then one thing I noticed from your post is that you mention having friends who care about you…and I feel it’s important to ask: do you have friends YOU care for? Do you care about their lives, their problems, etc? Maybe this feeling of not having meaningful connections stems partly from there. After all, connecting is a two way highway. I find that while it’s important for me to feel like my friends care about me it’s equally important for me to take time and get out of my head, focus on them, ask how they are doing because doing so makes me feel connected to them.

Just my two cents. I hope you feel better. Hugs.