I should have left much sooner. It has been two weeks since this happened and I haven’t talked to him since, but today it popped up in my head again and I was doing so well too, but it hurts all over again and I wanted to reach out. I’m glad I came back here. I have been trying to occupy my mind with the advice given. -Now I just see more and more is unraveling and you know I just wish people could love and care more about others and not use and hurt people. I know most wish that, but good people shouldn’t be used and even bad people. I always end up blaming myself and never can forgive myself. It’s easy for me to forgive others. Thank you all for being there for me and giving advice. I’ll be okay one day.