Hello Doreen,
You look rather young so if I may let me give you some advice, 2 things are necessary to live in today’s world Water and Belief in yourself, for many years I haven’t believed in myself and I was never able to break the habit..although there are things I wish I had done, I was never able to pull the trigger and spent a lifetime looking for answers of which the only real answer is to go for your dream and if you fail, you fail, but at least you tried..But here is the kicker..don’t give it a half assed try, do it with conviction, and never even pay attention to those who demean you, but there are always people who will give you things, do things for you, massage your ego and their payoff is they get you to do things that go against who you are and because these people are so persuasive and seem to know everything and everybody(this is also demeaning) you have a tendency to believe in them rather than you..I have fallen into that trap more than I care to admit.so if someone says something to you that you disagree with, just tell them that’s a nice idea, but I have a different take on the subject..do this a few times and your life will turn around and if it doesn’t take that glass of Water I talked about in my opening and pour it on their head