I am now in Chicago, we saw each other for a few minutes before I headed to the airport. We agreed this was not a goodbye but a see you later. I know what I have to do which is move forward and be happy for myself. I truly love this girl and did everything I could only control for the relationship. The only thing left for me to help me with this process is if it is meant to be then will find each other again to be together. That she would need to come after me if she ever realized she was ready or wanted to be with me.