Dear Anita,

Thank you for your comment. After reading your comment I felt immediate sadness followed by anger but this allowed me to examine these feelings and I am very aware that right now, anger does rule at this stage. However as the time has gone by, I do find that I am growing more curious to understand why he did this and I hope that in the next few months, my curiosity will be the overriding factor to contact him.

But please, I do not want to question the cheating. Understand that I did not immediately think that he had done that, I actually thought better of him, that he had broken up with me and then pursued someone else. It was only when it was spelled out to me in his detailed diary that I realised that on that Friday night, while I was shopping late in a supermarket buying things to make us lunches for our trip, with him in my heart, texting him that I was getting product XYZ because I knew he liked it, he was in bed with another person. Then allowed me to think the trip would go ahead another time. And when he had the opportunity to tell me the truth four days later, he chose cowardice and lied.