Well I think this calls for a sit down and a glass of wine.

… because I dislike religion because it creates hate, misunderstanding and war and suffering made by man…. Ive come to think that God is a state of mind or a state of being. God, to me, is a feeling. I read thd bible although I’ve read enough history to know how it’s been written and changed to suit various kings’ wishes. So I doubt it sometimes. But some of its a lovely feeling and common sense so I get thd gist of it.

MY God is maybe others” Buddha. Mine is loving and caring and will look after me.My God reminds me there’s a world outside of man and this logic we live by. My God is the sun that breaks through the clouds and feels like he’s looking at me. My god knows how I feel about nature and brings me a bird that lands on the ground in front of me and looks me right in the eyes and almost dares me to make him move to pass.

The God who knows me let’s me feel black. He let’s me feel the weight of suffering and misery and he pits me in those places through mt own stupid actions and he let’s me feel like suicide but he also keeps a little fire burning in my soul that says I need you to feel this to grow and go forwards but I’m not going to let you sink.

The God I trust in doesn’t judge me for making mistakes but he let’s me judge myself and says , it’s ok to hate yourself right now. But we git work to so so I need you to pick yourself up. And I feel I can’t he sends me thst bird. And breaks out that sun. And makes the trees blow madly as if it’s a message to say look you. There’s a world out there and it’s bigger than you and everything you could ever know so look up and out because I’m looking at you.

Now I am bit torn because dies God and spirituality combine? Can they be one and the same? The god book says no to ghosts but I feel their presence and I’m happy to believe that. My god is in me and I am happy to believe he’s the one sending guardian angels to keep me afloat because there’s work to do. He doesn’t even mind that I haven’t a clue what to do in life. That’s not important in the world. Thats only important in society. And he’s bigger than that too