Hey Sann
please don’t apologise for replying to my threads…
your self-esteem needs a boost
just pretend you have high self-esteem
I bet there is a confident character in you wanting to express itself?
Like a shadow? You feel ashamed of this character but he/she is the one who can save you from self-sabotage
he/she is the one who needs to assert herself more
for a while you might go too far the other way(too confident) but eventually you will balance things out…