Hi Anita, Inky and Mike.

Firstly, thank you soooo much for replying to my help. I’m sorry for such a late reply to your messages, but the truth is that for the last few days, I had been contemplating whether to reply or not, since this is the first time I have ever opened up to anyone.
In the end, I have decided to go ahead and do so anyway

Mike – I think that you are right. Although I’ve been battling this thought for a long time, I do actually believe I may be hit with depression. And I was so shocked that someone I’ve never even met could so accurately describe me, I do have an eating problem, where I have gained a lot of weight over the last year, and constantly eat a lot of junk food. I feel that I binge eat a lot, and yes, I constantly feel sluggish. At first I thought it was normal, due to my work stress, but over time I’ve come to realize it may be deeper than that. Thank you so much for your advice on that.

To Anita: sorry for not giving the details. It is my first time that I have ever opened up about my challenges with anyone, so it was difficult for me to write.
By the “negativity, bad relationships, wrong decisions and continuous setbacks”, I meant that over the years, I have learnt to trust the wrong people, that has I feel changed me for the worst, but at the same time these are the type of people I seem to attract in my life. My relationships have gone bad, I stop working hard as I once used you, and lack work passion that I once had, because I don’t feel confident enough to put the same effort in work projects, I guess now I just simply do my job.
I feel that I’m stuck in a career I dislike, because it is easier than what I really want to be, which I’m not sure I will be able to get into.
Before, my success was based on not just my dedication to work, but rather my commitment to other things, like I used to volunteer a lot, fund raise for a lot of causes, and was quite social.
But over the years I have started to withdraw, find no passion in helping other, choose to believe the worst in people as well as just get through my day.
I know it does come from lack of self – belief, but the truth is that I don’t know where to even start…How do yo just wake up one day and start believing in your self??