Thanks for the advice Inky but I don’t know if I want to contact him again. I think he just thinks I’m just a child, it never used to be like that (I’m 21 and he’s now 24). He used to care and actually admire me a little, I don’t mean that in an arrogant way but he liked that I was into science because he never understood it. He would tell his friends, she’s so smart! He would tell himself ‘she’s a fine girl!’ Now I’m meant to be a dead person. I don’t want to keep contacting him again to make myself look even more pathetic. I just imagine him sitting there, ‘oh she must still want me’, smirking and scoffing. I more than ever just want to forget this person. He will never ever know or understand how much pain he put me through and I hate that.

I wish I could convey his personality. Arrogance is a great word but there’s spitefulness too. I wish people like this ceased to exist. They ruin the world. Sorry for such a dramatic message, I’ve had a hard day.