Cath

I am so sorry you are going thru this and feel so alone. My parents also split when I was a young adult while I was breaking up/making up with an abusive partner–it sucks, it hurts, and it seems all encompassing. Excellent advice to share and purge here. It was many years ago for me and I did some healthy and very unhealthy acts to get thru it. I will share some of the healthy actions.

Do something creative. Do you sew? I string beads–go to yard sales, redesign old jewelry combine them with other old pieces. Maybe you draw or have a talent you haven’t used in a while. Recycle, repurpose, dream a new dream. Write a poem, a story. look at paint colors–let them speak to you. Being creative will make you get out of your head and into your body…and stop living in the hurt, even for a little while, then a longer while.

if you do not meditate–start. if you do not exercise–start.

Years later I can tell you now I learned to relove my parents–they weren’t very lovable at the time. this may or may not happen for you.
I can tell you that I have been in other relationships and I learned from all of them. I wish I had not wasted so much time on bad partners, I wish I had been told that I deserved to be treated with respect. My parents were too busy with there own lives to tell me that and because they were raw with hurt weren’t there for me….but friends here on this site will tell you deserve to be treated well,

I am wearing a necklace I made–saw my sister yesterday, she was wearing some jewelry I made. its funky, off the wall, creative, and made with love– kind of like how I turned out, the me I was searching for years ago.

I am an older hippy chick now.. settled down near the beach with a great guy…living a simple life. I still have occasional panic but I have learned skills to help.

I wish that for you. Learning skills to help…finding your voice…get up try again.

Seaisland