Dear Name…
Can you please tell me what to call you. Even a fake name is better than no name. You remind me very much of myself at that age. I had no direction, no passion, and most definitely no hope. Today my life is so much better. The one thing I can tell you for sure… Is if you give up, you lose all possibilities of life getting better.
Finding a path, a direction is not to difficult. At age 18, you can look for a passion. Start small by volunteering somewhere. Either with animals, kids, or helping with local clean ups. The Red Cross was a life changer for me. I started volunteering for them 15 years ago, and I can say it changed my life! Thought me how wonderful it is to help others. On the other side, my volunteerism has led to MANY job opportunities. Today I am a Program Assistant for a non-profit.
As far as failing school, talk to your guidance counselor, show them you are serious about graduating and ask what you need to do. Even if it means one more year, that accomplishment will make you feel very proud.
I am glad you reached out for help. There is lots of help, and hope in the world! Never give up.
Peace, Love, Utopia.