January 15, 2016 at 5:51 pm #92646BeniteParticipant
I read pretty much all the above posts and thought to myself what can I possibly say that hasn’t been said? I was going to leave without typing anything but then I thought if anything I have to say will help you even just a little bit then taking the time to write a response would be worth it.
Not long ago I was really depressed and was suicidal. I did not understand what my purpose was in life. I didn’t think I was good at anything and I couldn’t imagine a future for myself. I was feeling that way and I’m 33, you’re only 18 with your whole life ahead of you.
I spent many days in bed without a care in the world, no job, I just wanted to die basically. I did however want to create a place for other people that might be just as depressed as I was. I don’t know why but something inside of me kept telling me I have to create a place for people who feel like they don’t belong anywhere.
I decided one day to learn how to create websites, and I created a website for those who are depressed and need to feel a sense of belonging. In my blog I talk a lot about my experience with depression and anxiety and I give tips on how to overcome them. The website gives me the purpose I have been looking for. It also makes me feel great that I am doing something that not only benefits me but benefits other people as well.
Sometimes when we’re so lost and can’t figure our life out, It helps to do stuff for other people. Like some of the above posters suggested, you might want to think about volunteering. Think of something you can do that can benefit others and it may help you find your purpose.
You might also consider writing in a journal or start blogging like me. Writing for my website is a great therapy for me. I hope I helped you at least a little bit. I’ll keep checking back here to get updates on how you’re doing. Obviously you can see there are a lot of people here for you if you need to vent. You can contact me through my website as well. If you do enjoy writing let me know. I’m actually looking for a couple of writers for my site. I’d pay you per article, either way stay in touch. Let us know how you are doing.January 16, 2016 at 10:28 am #92673SebbyParticipant
Hi there. Have things got any better?January 16, 2016 at 11:17 am #92682
Dear Name/ Reader:
I read your threads over time, Name. And it is very sad to me. I know your life has been pretty miserable and I wish it wasn’t so. I know young Name, the child, Name, was very hurt by the people who were supposed to love him. It is incredibly sad for me. I so very much wish that over time, starting today, any day, you will start healing from the injuries caused to you.
Your posts on this forum indicate to me that you find some satisfaction in getting attention for your pain. I understand that, it feels good to be attended to, to bring to your side feelings of empathy. Problem is, it is not enough, Name.
The attention you are getting here is not enough for you to heal. It takes more than that. And I believe you are stuck in just this: posting once in a while about your misery, getting attention, “disappearing” for a while and then posting again, with no progress in between posts.
There is healing to be made, initiated by you. I am here to support you in this endeavor, healing from your injuries. Please help me, help others to help you .. help yourself.
Best wishes to you:
anitaJanuary 17, 2016 at 2:09 pm #92837
I don’t know. I feel like I can only talk about how I feel here. I can never talk to someone i know or anyone I can see face to face.January 17, 2016 at 2:22 pm #92840
Well, one of my closest friends tells me he wants to kill himself every day. At first I thought he was joking, but he’s been telling me everyday for a few months. He’s probably just as depressed as I am. But I pretend depression doesn’t exist. When he tells me he wants to kill himself i either ignore him or I just tell him to stop acting like that. He tells me he hates his life and stuff. He tells me a lot but I ignore it and act like everything is okay. I tell him it’s all in his head. I just don’t know how to help him I guess.January 17, 2016 at 2:52 pm #92844
Why don’t you and your friend attend a self help group? If you are in the U.S., there are such groups in some places as “Depressed Anonymous”- or some other support group where you and your friend can get some support? Need not ignore it and pretend everything is okay. You and your friend need outside help: psychotherapy, counseling, a support group, something, so get to it, will you?
anitaJanuary 17, 2016 at 10:18 pm #92873
Never. I don’t need anyone to know I have a miserable lifeJanuary 18, 2016 at 8:06 am #92880
You wrote that you don’t need anyone to know you have a miserable life. You do let everyone on this forum know you have a miserable life. Does it help you, to let everyone know here?
How does it feel to you when you let everyone know here, on this forum? How does it feel to you when you get empathetic replies, people being concerned about you?
anitaJanuary 19, 2016 at 9:23 pm #93095
I’m anonymous on this forum. Noone knows me so noone can say he’s that guy that sucks at life. He’s weak. He’s a failure. He’s nobody.
People on this forum have to feel empathy for me and that’s why I come here. Just knowing someone cares about me gives me hope. It tells me there are good people in this world. It’s the only way I can get empathy so I feel valuable. Like somebody.January 20, 2016 at 7:10 am #93105
Of all your posts, this one, right above, is the most sincere, touching and endearing post of yours that I read. It makes so much sense and is so honest and simple to understand. I do have one correction: I do not think “he’s that guy that sucks at life. He’s weak. He’s a failure. He’s nobody.”
I do not think those things about you. I think: “he’s that guy that is hurting. He’s strong inside him and doesn’t know it. He can win if he gets on the healing path. He is, definitely, very much a somebody.
anitaJanuary 24, 2016 at 1:50 am #93466January 24, 2016 at 9:42 am #93482
Best to get on the healing path with a good, dedicated, empathetic psychotherapist. Free of cost ways: joining a group like a 12 step group, that works, when it works, like a none professional group psychotherapy. Other ways, to start: certain self help books, maybe articles on the Home page of tiny buddha. Then writing your thoughts and feelings, privately or here on this forum.
To get on the healing path you also need to step off the … sickening path, that is of continuing contacts with people who put you down, scream at you, things like that, ending those interactions.
What do you think so far?
anitaJanuary 24, 2016 at 1:17 pm #93507January 24, 2016 at 3:11 pm #93517LoriParticipant
Can you please tell me what to call you. Even a fake name is better than no name. You remind me very much of myself at that age. I had no direction, no passion, and most definitely no hope. Today my life is so much better. The one thing I can tell you for sure… Is if you give up, you lose all possibilities of life getting better.
Finding a path, a direction is not to difficult. At age 18, you can look for a passion. Start small by volunteering somewhere. Either with animals, kids, or helping with local clean ups. The Red Cross was a life changer for me. I started volunteering for them 15 years ago, and I can say it changed my life! Thought me how wonderful it is to help others. On the other side, my volunteerism has led to MANY job opportunities. Today I am a Program Assistant for a non-profit.
As far as failing school, talk to your guidance counselor, show them you are serious about graduating and ask what you need to do. Even if it means one more year, that accomplishment will make you feel very proud.
I am glad you reached out for help. There is lots of help, and hope in the world! Never give up.
Peace, Love, Utopia.January 24, 2016 at 5:31 pm #93535
Regarding your last note to me, about you not having a job: I understand that it is distressing you. Before your last note, you asked about the healing path and I responded to that, above. The healing path is not doing a whole lot at one time, solving all problems at one time. The healing path is not fast and easy. If you wait, just w.a.i.t to have a job and for everything to be well before you get on the healing path… well, you wouldn’t then need to get on the path. So one thing at the time, slowly, patiently.