Thanks bevan for the support;) I agree with you cheerio, sometimes my thoughts get too far ahead or at other times they feel hazy and like you said “i need to get out of head.” Whenever my thoughts get out of order, I tend to workout, read a book or listen to music. I hope things are going okay with you guys. anita, i agree with you interpretation that sometimes people feel detached from themselves or reality and often realize that childhood fantasies don’t always come true. In Girl, interrupted; the narrator, Susanna Kaysen is like that, sometimes she feels her childhood slipping away from her and she feels detached unsure of how to face the reality of the world which seemed so new to her when she was a child. I think Susanna needs to learn how to accept reality and learn not to deny it and to confront the parts of her that she doesn’t like instead of denying them. On page 37, Susanna mentions that she wishes she could kill the negative parts of herself, the parts that keep distorting reality, the part that makes her feel detached and sad and makes her wonder whether is she really alive or not. Yet, I feel like she needs to accept that part of her and let it go instead of fighting against it. I agree that sometimes television and books over-exaggerate reality, although i don’t watch television either except for workout videos, I enjoy reading books because I feel they at least give some sense to reality as they were written by real, life people and thoughts. I agree that the mental hospital (Mclean Hospital) seems like an obstacle and also a protector of those patients within it from reality. One of the characters, Torrey has ambitions to escape the hospital, but is afraid to see the real world and never makes it to freedom even though Lisa and the other patients see the potential in her.

I think everyone wants freedom and a self-fulfilling life, but it is important for them to first accept their faults and let them go and not to deny them. I think everyone in life has doubts and sometimes the world can be a stressful place, yet people need to keep hope and face reality one step at a time. Everyone has those times when they feel lost and insecure, yet the important thing is to realize that it is okay. Typically when I feel lost and sad, I tend to workout or make a list of my talents and I remind myself of how much I have accomplished. I have also learned to accept and let go of parts of my past and also to be healthy and tone my body. I am thinking of using reiki to heal, let go and bring closure to the parts of the past that still continue to give me negativity. I learned the hard way in seventh grade to not deny reality and sadness and not to keep the sadness inside. I thought it would be okay if i pretended I was fine and kept everything inside, yet the sadness piled up in eighth grade and I realized I had to let it out. That was when I started writing poetry and also setting a goal to get good grades to keep my mind active and to comfort myself because I had few friends those two years. Also I realized that everything has a balance and to expect the unexpected, that sometimes sad things can happen and to expect them, accept them and let them go. We should live each moment of this life accepting ourselves and never losing hope in our dreams no matter our age.