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Thanks anita;) I realized that patience and practice are always the best way to go toward a goal. I’ve never been a procrastinator and I always want to get things done quickly. If I have my mind set on a goal, I don’t let go of it despite others being negative about it or despite facing obstacles, I’ll try to work my way to the goal. Yet, I tend to sometimes try to do some many things at once and expect results quickly and it can be hard for me to be patient waiting for the results of my goal. For example, after a test, I often calculate all that I did wrong on the test and how my score would be and I am full of nervous energy awaiting my score, I keep checking and getting annoyed until when my score shows, I’m relieved. I’ve also realized that some of the athletes at my school don’t have good sportsmanship and there are times when I really want to improve my athletic performance so I can show them they’e not as good as they claim to be. Yet, i’ve realized that it only hurts myself by trying to improve myself to limits that aren’t right for me especially when I haven’t accepted the talents I have now. Because I care about my grades, I often study, research and read in my spare time. I have come up with a quote about the times when the athletes made me feel like I wasn’t good enough because I didn’t have the best coordination, strength and agility they had. The quote is “Athleticism isn’t about starting out with a heavy workout and acting as if you have the world’s greatest endurance and strength. Athleticism is tempered by humility, believing and accepting yourself in starting with small moderate workouts and building yourself up; it’s about seeing how much you can and have improved to be healthy, not how much you can do at one time. The athlete that tries to test his/her endurance by starting with a hard workout hurts himself by not giving his muscles enough time to warm up to the strain, it is important to start small and build up to moving mountains.” I would always say this to myself when some of the athletes would make fun of me. also, even though it hurts when people say mean things to you, i don’t sink to their level, i just take it and let it go and just meditate on being a better person than they are. i wish my parents would stop focusing on my inadequacies and thinking i can’t survive in the real world and start focusing on the things i can do like my hopes and dreams in living life to the fullest, science and community service.