Thanks, anita;) I am enjoying physics honors right now, there are some concepts about freefalling that I’m still working to grasp. I have an ap world history ch. 12 test tomorrow and have to memorize four maps (10 points), multiple choice (10 points) and ten comparison diagrams of empires [mughal, ming, europe, ottoman, safavid, iroquois, nacirema (still confused on this culture)] worth 80 points. There is so much competition between students in ap and honors classes whether it’s gpa, test scores, college choosings, class ranks, etc. I’m not sure what defines intelligence anymore, sometimes it is gpa, other times its who got the highest est score or who has the highest class rank. Everyone who takes ap and honors (30% of our school) seems to be competing and there is frequent changing of classes so people can boost themselves up. People are forming study alliances and then they break apart after one person does better and that person wants to work with another person. i don’t know who my friends are anymore before everyone is just rushing, competing and there just isn’t any time for people to even talk to each other asking if they are okay or even for people to stop and observe nature for a while. All this pressure is making me restless because I feel like i need to partake in the competition, but i try to still not get too caught up on building my intelligence that i miss out on what it feels to be alive and the true meaning of life through the beauty of nature and the little things. it is a good thing that m subconscious mind is able to think quickly and i can solve problems in algebra quite well. i’m still trying to improve on data analysis, probability and statistics and logical reasoning word problems. the good thing is that whenever i am stressed, the guy i’ve known since seventh grade is always around and looking out for me. he’s always making sure i’m okay and comforting me if i get stressed. after ap world history, i was stressed thinking of the upcoming test and he was there and he told me it would be okay, he even went over some of the history notes with me. after ap english and pre-calc before lunch, my head was spinning from pre-calc equations yet i was happy because i really like pre-calc this year. yet before i went to lunch, i saw him and he asked if i was okay because i seemed somewhat detached, i said i was fine, that i was just thinking about pre-calc which i have a test tomorrow, but i think it will be easy. i just hope i don’t get too worked up over my ap world history test that i mess up on pre-calc one. he knows i’ve been staying after school these days and a lot of my classes are hard and he seems to be worried that i’m taking too much strain. i am really focused on school because i also have SATs february 20th. i’m grateful to have him in my life because he always tells me not to be too hard on myself, to stay calm and always tells me that he believes in me. i heard him say to a friend today that he wished he could take the same classes as i did so he could help me with them and ease the strain of the competition between ap and honors students, but most of the classes are full and he isn’t sure the idea of mostly ap and honors is right for him. i overheard him so i went to tell him to not worry about it, that he has already helped me lots in life and that it’s okay if he isn’t taking mostly honors and ap. i told him that life isn’t about intelligence and competition, it’s about supporting people, making friends and enjoying the journey of life.