i feel like i should be able to “man up” about the situation since he’s someone i only know from the internet (i haven’t met him in person yet), but it might take more time for me to just get over the fear. i’m still thinking down the destiny road with him, so if he were to hurt my feelings, i think i’d be crushed more than i’ve ever been with any other crush i had before. which is probably totally silly since i’ve never met him! i get a feeling he means something different than other guys meant to me.