benzrabbit –

it’s actually very funny that you mentioned that book because that’s the EXACT book i came across the other day, yet i didn’t buy it over the shining by stephen king. i knew i should’ve gotten it but i have this massive obsession with the movie so i couldn’t resist getting the book haha! i actually have her app for symptom healing, but the closest mantras i have to what’s in the book is the one for apathy.

i hear you on how i should put in my own strength as well as god giving it to me, but i think i’m very very frantic and just as long as it may take to love myself and heal myself, it may take for me to acquire strength.

i also believe that god is not vengeful, although what i feel is happening (or not happening rather) for me is the opposite. i usually feel that maybe i have to do something in order for god to work with me. maybe that could be my own illusion.

god bless you too!