Thanks a lot anita;) I was in ap english today and at 9:55, i saw a bright flash of light and saw angel wings and felt at peace for a while. i think one of my guy friends saw it as well because i saw him start in his chair and open his eyes wider. anyway we were learning about logical fallacies (statements that sound true, but really aren’t such as susie is a cat, most cats are black, therefore susie must be a black cat) and the topic is really quite interesting. there are so many cool latin terms ( i love latin since it’s the language of science) such as non sequitor (latin for does not follow and is a conclusion that doesn’t follow logically from the premise, i think the above is an example). i am currently working on physics honors, but i haven’t gotten test grades lower than an 80 yet, so i’m okay. today, we had to outline chapter three on vectors and it is confusing at times because there are many ways you can find the magnitude displacement and direction of a vector, i hope the teacher goes over it tomorrow. i think pre-calc is my favorite class because my teacher has taught me many ways to quickly solve and factor problems instead of spending lots of time on them and the way she explains it is much clearer than what i had in algebra 2 honors last semester. i think i got either a 96 or 107 on the quiz today. anyway, one of my friends told me there was a feather on my sweatshirt (during ap english and it was white. after she picked it up and placed it on the desk next to me, i saw another flash of white light and saw angel wings, i looked at the other guy who i thought had seen it before and i could tell by his smile that he had seen it too. the weirdest and coolest thing is that after ten minutes of the angel feather being in my glasses case (i put it there for safe keeping), i saw it float towards the guy and place itself into his physics honors textbook (we share a physics and an ap english class). he was quite surprised and i saw him look at the feather before taking it and putting it in the plastic sheet in his binder. anyway while we were walking and talking about our classes, he opened the binder and the feather was gone and we were upset. yet we both heard a voice and felt a rush of angel wings saying that life isn’t complete without loss and sacrifices and sometimes you have to lose things to get on your goal, the important thing is to believe and keep trying. anyway, we both felt more at peace as we went to our third block class. at the end of our fourth block class, the guy excited told me that the feather was back in his physics honors textbook. we both smiled at each other and realized that we both shared a spiritual moment and that we were being guided on our paths. i was reassured that things would be okay in my life and i didn’t need to stress. there are times when i think my special friend and i still connect and i am grateful for those times, yet at other times we are distant. i feel okay to let us both have our space and even though it is sad for both of us that we aren’t close to each other as we used to be, we realized that we taught each other a lot and the memories shared help us grow. the coolest thing this morning was that it was windy outside and i enjoyed the wind, i pictured the wind carrying away my stress and also building my confidence. it was great because when i got to first block, ap world history, many of my friends said i had a glow about me and i seemed happier, also that having my hair down really made me seem more relaxed person. i think even if i feel downcast and stressed or nervous about school, there is still hope because i’m not alone. all the dreams and experiences i have and i realize the universe believes in me. i had a dream last night that i was sitting with the buddha on a cloud and i asked the buddha why i was on a lower cloud and if i could ascend. the buddha told me that in order to ascend to a higher cloud, i had to let go of all negativity, wants and desires and just trust in myself and my life. then i saw myself drenched in rain while the buddha floated peacefully into the clouds, i felt myself growing heavy like i was being burdened by a bolder, i cried out “i don’t think i will ever make it to nirvana, there are so many obstacles in life!” and the buddha looked down on me and said “the universe believes in you, life is a path of obstacles but what matters is the person you become when you face them, you can take the obstacles and complain about how life is meaningless or you can change your perspective and become a better person.” i felt much better and hopeful and the buddha then lowered his cloud and took my hand and said “i know you will find a way, you have more hope and potential than you think you do. believe in yourself and don’t let anything bring you down. i will guide you in life.” so the buddha took my hand and i felt myself rise and see stars and moons and my soon i was sitting on a cloud equal to that of the buddha. the buddha then pointed up at a bright star, radiant as the sun and said “someday you will reach that star, you will attain nirvana. i have initiated the process, it is up to you to continue it.” with those words, the buddha rose and i was back on earth.