anita –

i think i actually kind of screwed my assignment. remember the acquaintence i made on friday? i didn’t say hi i was too afraid. kinda. i waved to her when she first came into the classroom but once class was over, i never really said anything to her even though i really thought about it.

i wish i could do a better job of taking care of myself. the job i asked for was already filled so i have to wait till next semester to be considered. which only means that i have to keep looking for a job. i just wish i had one so i could do things for myself, particularly to treat myself since i don’t get to get out much with anybody or anything like that. i also HAVE to. my mom expects me to get necessarily toiletries myself by now although i still live with her, but i need a job to fund that. but if i had something to do something that makes me happy, i’d feel way better. i think so anyway. i’d be able to get out of the house and do things other than stay home and worry and overeat.