haha! and i’ll try my best to calm down. i just really wish that things i really really want to happen would happen for me already. i don’t see why there has to be this big whole long wait. and when i say wait i don’t mean like…wait and sit around. i feel like i put in so much energy to things and then nothing ever seems to happen. i don’t understand why that is, but i never know when it’s okay to wait. like you could try to be someone’s friend over and over but when will they get it? or you could paint over and over but when will you be an artist?