Thank you for offering your advice and assistance. My initial thoughts were to link it back to a time where I had been deeply hurt as well. However, I can’t think of a time when I have ever been hurt. My family was amazing, I’ve always had good friends and I’ve dated so many different types that I can’t even attribute it to me just choosing the wrong kind of personalities.

Going off of something Matty said above:

When you end the relationships, how do others feel? is it mutual? is it “what…um…i don’t understand”? I guess it is ‘normal’ to feel nervous and a little depressed because its a recurring pattern. Well, it would make sense to start to re-evaluate what you do and do it differently. Instead of just flirting and letting the other partner initiate, why not you just go up and ask them if they are interested?

Every man I’ve ever dated has been totally blind-sighted. I know this is going to sound horrible and conceited but every time I’ve dated someone, they’ve been crazy about me and I’ve always had one foot out the door. I’ve also tried to take initiative, I’ve asked people out before, and I’ve gotten bored just as easily. There seems to be a small amount of time where I can tolerate a relationship, but when it comes down to it. I resent having to share my life with anyone. I hate having to text them, I don’t like small talk about our days, and I can’t stand how often we are supposed to see each other. I don’t want to be near anyone that often. It sounds exhausting! And then I lust after boys who don’t give me a second look. (I think it’s because to me they feel unattainable and therefore “safe” to like. I don’t have to worry about it going any further than a crush)

I think that is a huge part of my problem. However, I haven’t the slightest clue where to start to rectify the issue. If anyone has any advice, please help! This is so discouraging. I truly want to have a healthy and normal relationship, but it seems impossible at the moment.