Dear Lily111:

It is possible for you to get clarity where you are now, possible to get clarity through communication with another, here, maybe. If you would like, we can communicate about your situation back and forth until you get clarity. At least this is a worthy aim, goal. So, if you are willing, aim at clarity and the calm that comes with it…?

As to my question about leaving behind the massive network of family and friends, you are saying that one member (family?) back in the UK is “very toxic”- who, how is he/ she toxic and how often did you interact with that person in the UK? Are you still in contact with him/ her, online or on the phone?

Are there other members of your family and friends in the UK who is also toxic, maybe less so, but still? How often did you interact with them in the UK and are you still in contact with them?

How are your girls doing in the UK? Are they doing not as well as they did when you were present in the UK? Same or better?

anita