Thank you, Alec.

It is such a difficult decision – thinking about my best friend as more than this is fairly new to me, apart from a few moments when people have made comments about us etc.

I just don’t know if my doubting my current relationship is simply because of the things my friend has said to me – in which case, this is all very new and I might just be caught up in the romantic idea of it, rather than its actuality. I expect it’s natural to have some doubts when you are approaching the time where marriage may be on the cards, and I was having a few thoughts of ‘how do you know if the person you are with is the one?’ (But these may only have arisen because of a few comments my best friend had made to me that hinted he’d liked me in the past).

I’d hate to throw away a good relationship for something that isn’t real…and my relationship is good with my boyfriend, we have barely ever argued, we enjoy doing new things together, we support each other etc. and I was very happy until this bomb shell was dropped on me… although maybe I have always known there was something with my best friend and just not admitted it to myself.

Agh!