Hi,

I could say do this or do that. But I think the best will be to point you to the best man who actually, I believe can help you, and make you understand how your mind works. He is the number one motivational speaker in the world and I do urge you click on the link and try him. He has changed my life from night to day and if you do want to have the insight please listen to him. It is better it comes to you from the horses mouth than from me, I am still a beginner but am learning fast and loving it! He has been studying life for over 45 years and really he is authority to listen to. You can ether try this link: https://lifesuccess.infusionsoft.com/go/bpscc/a892/ or this one: https://lifesuccess.infusionsoft.com/go/bpscr/a892/
You talk about the dreams you have given up, about the lack of confidence, about fighting and struggle. Do give him few minutes of your time, it may be the best you have ever done for yourself. He has the answers to all what you are talking about. From what I see, you are confident person and strong person who has dreams but you need to understand how to go about it and train your mind. It does work and I wish you WELL. Take care and listen and learn. It is The best kept Secret!!!! Martina PS: You will bounce back!