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Oskari,
Taking responsibility for your thoughts is not about control… as you say “right -wing” political dominance. Instead, it is about recognizing that when our mind spins we’re not producing the conditions for our happiness. I get these ideas from Buddha (and since, my own experiences), who sat, let his mind settle, and experienced peace, wisdom and joy.
I respect and enjoy your comparisons and resistance. 🙂
One of my teachers told me that when the mind spins out is like a whirlwind that draws us into it. For instance, our mind has a thought “why did she stop loving me” and immediately starts applying our analytical skills to the question. We imagine all sorts of answers to the question. “Shes devious” or “Something is wrong with me” or whatnot. From those answers, we imagine more questions. “Will I love again?” And imagine more answers. And on and on.
Meanwhile, the world goes by while we circle around and around in our head. Taking responsibility for our thoughts is not about trying to “stop thinking” these things, but recognizing the spinning is harming us. Then, we open up the space around the thoughts (sitting in meditation) and the whirlwind settles naturally. Said differently, its like when a forest fire is raging through a country side and firefighters clear out parts of the forest so it does not spread and spread. This might look like: “yes, there are lots of questions, lots of unknown. However, now it is not necessary to imagine answers. Now is a good time to notice my breath. Now is a good time to sit and let the mind settle. Breathing in, I feel the air come in. Breathing out, I feel the air go out.”. As you let your attention move to the breath, the mind will pull you back in, and the effort is only to notice it and move back to feeling the breath.
The suggested reading can help more. If you’re interested. 🙂
With warmth,
Matt