Hello ,
first of all I really think you should be easier on yourself, its ok to get upset sometimes and have these feelings, its important that you recognize them though , and you did which is the first step to doing anything really. Second of all , maybe its time you calm down and reconnect with yourself and what you truly want , try to remember why you wanted this dream in the first place, what you thought it would feel like to have it in your hands. Try to go back to the beginning and remember what made you think of it in the first place, I’m sure you are doing something you love and that you are 100% sure you wanted this , but people change and so do their dreams, so maybe its that you dont want this thing anymore , maybe its not all you dreamed it would be ? Or maybe you forgot why you wanted it and thats why you need to remember why , write it down so you can keep yourself motivated to do this everyday and to motivate yourself to open a book and study because you will remember every second why you really started this . Money will come and go don’t tell yourself that you cant pay it off, if it is your destiny no matter what happens the money will work itself out. And don’t think that you have lost your purpose because if you had no purpose you would not still be on this planet. Remember you are here for a reason , you are going to do something only YOU can do , nobody in history ever has or ever will do what you have come here to do, and nothing and no one will ever stop you from accomplishing what you want . You would not have a dream in your heart if there was no way to accomplish it, its in there for a reason. So try your best to keep looking at inspirational things and keep your head up you might be in a struggle now but you will get out of it just keep telling yourself you are strong, and you have everything already IN you to become what you were suppose to be, just be silent , listen to your heart and remember who you are and why you want what you want.