I couldn’t help but smile when I read your post and then your question again. 🙂

Did you notice that you answered your own question? 😉

“Have you seen “Into the wild” ? This is what I want, really, grow my own vegetables, have a dog, a little cottage, be close to nature – a hippystyle-life, really”

You even used the word “really” twice. 😉 I wouldn’t have been able to describe what I want as well as you have.

I have seen “Into The Wild” and despite his tragic end, I don’t think it’s unrealistic or unreasonable want. While I would never encourage to sell all your belongings and move to Alaska to live in a bus, what small baby-step change could you make in your life to bring yourself closer to nature and satisfy that want or need?

You’re thinking in vary grandiose terms. Like you need an overhaul. But I don’t feel that’s going to give you what you want, because I’m sure there’s aspects of your current lifestyle that you wouldn’t want to lose either.

Making a list and writing is always a good place. Start off with keywords, ideas, feelings, concepts, people, places, and things that you’re feel drawn towards. Which of those things are already present in your life? Which ones would you like more of? What’s one little thing that you could do this week to bring some more of those things into your life?

It’s a relatively simple yet powerful exercise. I highly recommend you try it.