Thank you Matt and Patt, I understand both point of views (or facts more like it) and like you Patt I think I am aiming for the same thing, to attempt to have it figured out so I don’t have to suffer as much, and I can float more easily through life but I guess that’s kind of impossible and I understand that there is both good and bad, we will never be 100% constantly happy and enlightened; nit makes sense now why I get so disappointed with myself and what I have learnt (how slow I think im going) because I set such high standards for myself and expect the impossible, overnight! it’s an on-going thing? Maybe theres a lot to do with control aswell, trying to have a handle on everything to ensure a good outcome to avoid heartache always (like many others) but I guess that can be kinda crazy and irrational.

I can see from a more grounded perspective after reading both, thank you so much for the insight its very valuable to me and I love your description matt, I love analogies especially the ones you used above 🙂 gives me such a clear understanding

Thank you!

Kirsty x