Dear Jerry,

Thank you again for the good advice… sadly I cannot seem to cry lately. I don’t know why…. I always go to this adoration chapel and just sit there for hours, hoping a miracle will happen and take away the pain. I want to give him enough space so he can think and decide for himself. It hurts too much, but I can see no other way. I don’t want to expect anymore or even hope that we will get back together. I can only pray for God to guide me and help him too… I hope I can rely on good people here to help me get through this. Right now I am assisting my friends children, for I lost my friend last April 7, their Mom. The kids are not doing good and still miss my friend a lot. They are close to me so I try to be there for them whenever I can. IT somehow fills up the sadness and pain a bit… am I making any sense? God, sometimes I don’t even know what I’m doing….you are a blessing to so many people here who needs your help and for that, I want to thank you…