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  • #38468
    kelly467
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    OMG I have read everyone’s posts in here and sad that we all went through the same things…. my BF suddenly changed because of some petty argument, just a day before he promised me the moon and the stars! He turned cold, uncaring and even rude…. and at this point I think if that happens, we really cannot do anything about i but move on, no matter how painful. It’s not easy I know, I’ve cried a bucket, analyzed things over and over and tried to find out what went wrong. But in the end, we won’t get the answer we need simply because those men are not ready to face and accept the word “commitment” which is what we really want, right?

    I am still not fully recovered, but at least the heavy heart is gone now…. and I don’t want to be bitter about it, nor do I want to keep hatred. Coz frankly, if those men cannot meet us halfway, then the relationship is doomed from the start. Love is all about complete Trust, Honesty, Loyalty, Open Communication and Commitment. And LOVE is the reason we all exist. So let him go, if he comes back to you, it was meant to be… If not, then it’s his loss.

    Stay strong and keep praying…. remember that everything happens for a reason.

    #37660
    kelly467
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    omg why is it so heavy today???

    #37646
    kelly467
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    Jerry,

    I hope and pray that I can do this….

    #37643
    kelly467
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    You know I went to this wonderful Church this morning, I had a very solemn and beautiful mass it touched my soul. I stayed there for hours and wish I can simply stay there. After the mass, there was this healing, like the anointing of the sick and it was my first time so I was very touched when the lay minister prayed for me while putting some oil in my forehead and palm. I felt so at peace… I don’t want to blame anyone and at this point in my life, I just want to be at peace and be happy again. I surrendered everything to God now and whatever happens, I know He will be with me every step of the way. It won’t be easy I know… I don’t even know what will happen to me in the future, but for now, I just don’t want to hurt anymore… I don’t want to beg, I deserve more than that! I simply want to exist so I can still love and be with my family, my friends and whoever needs my help. I still want to think I’m blessed coz there are way too many people who are going through so much pain and sickness… I just realized, if he gives up on me now, then it’s better to end it. I cannot stay with someone who cannot even fight for me. The homily this morning was “Be patient, learn to wait”… so that’s what I’m going to do. I love him so much but he should also realize that it works both ways….

    #37590
    kelly467
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    Thank you again for listening…. I really wonder how u guys can find time to help out those in need of your good advice and wisdom. Frankly, I don’t even know how I’m getting through the day. My heart is always heavy and I pray a lot for sanity and guidance. I try my best to still do what is right. I know I don’t have any right to question God, coz I really believed in my heart He gave Michael to me… but I’m not getting any sign lately. If I follow my heart I know I will beg him back, but if I follow my mind I will wait until this is over, and when he decides he really wants to end it, that would be the day I will die. It’s been 6 days now.. no word from him. It’s getting harder each day, that’s why I made that goodbye letter so in case he’s having a hard time breaking it to me… I’m giving him an easy way out. Coz frankly, I’m so tired begging for love. That isn’t what love is all about, right? Love is something very special to me, and it should be based on mutual trust, respect, honesty and open communication. I thought we had that… is it wrong for me to still hope?

    #37584
    kelly467
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    Jerry, can u please help me out again? I wrote him a goodbye letter.. but I’m not sure whether to give it to him… maybe I just want to release my emotions, coz I’m so hurting… or maybe I need closure, I don’t know. Maybe I also need to hear that it’s over… God, I’m such a mess…sorry

    #37498
    kelly467
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    Dear Jerry,

    Thank you again for the good advice… sadly I cannot seem to cry lately. I don’t know why…. I always go to this adoration chapel and just sit there for hours, hoping a miracle will happen and take away the pain. I want to give him enough space so he can think and decide for himself. It hurts too much, but I can see no other way. I don’t want to expect anymore or even hope that we will get back together. I can only pray for God to guide me and help him too… I hope I can rely on good people here to help me get through this. Right now I am assisting my friends children, for I lost my friend last April 7, their Mom. The kids are not doing good and still miss my friend a lot. They are close to me so I try to be there for them whenever I can. IT somehow fills up the sadness and pain a bit… am I making any sense? God, sometimes I don’t even know what I’m doing….you are a blessing to so many people here who needs your help and for that, I want to thank you…

    #37497
    kelly467
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    Dear Jerry,

    Thank you again for the good advice… sadly I cannot seem to cry lately. I don’t know why…. I always go to this adoration chapel and just sit there for hours, hoping a miracle will happen and take away the pain. I want to give him enough space so he can think and decide for himself. It hurts too much, but I can see no other way. I don’t want to expect anymore or even hope that we will get back together. I can only pray for God to guide me and help him too… I hope I can rely on good people here to help me get through this. Right now I am assisting my friends children, for I lost my friend last April 7, their Mom. The kids are not doing good and still miss my friend a lot. They are close to me so I try to be there for them whenever I can. IT somehow feels up the sadness and pain a bit… am I making any sense? God, sometimes I don’t even know what I’m doing….you are a blessing to so many people here who needs your help and for that, I want to thank you…

    #37496
    kelly467
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    Dear Jenni,

    I would love to help you out, but at the moment, I am also undergoing some pain so all I can offer you is my prayer and hope that everything works out for you… may God guide us through this difficult time… stay strong.

    #37492
    kelly467
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    Thanks Jerry… I know love is the only thing that makes sense in this world. The problem is ppl mess it up all the time. I’m such a hopeless romantic and by heart I still believe in happy endings. Sadly, doesn’t work that way for me… I know he loves me, he’s proven that at least. The problem is in every mistake or imperfection I make, he gets so mad and accuses me of things I cannot take. I already fought for us twice, but now I’m just so confused, I’m keeping my space and silence. I believe if you really love someone, you will try to work out your differences and meet halfway, right? I don’t feel that way and I admit, I’m a very loyal person when it comes to love… I had high hopes and dreams for us… now all I have is a broken heart… I don’t know how to survive this 🙁

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