Hey Matt,
I’m really thankful to you for replying.You are right about all that future focus stealing the happiness from me.That’s cos all the time I keep thinking that all my teachers and my principal should not feel that it was their mistake in making me the headgirl..I keep getting appreciated by them but even while Im getting accolades I fear that there should not come a time when even one person should be dis-satisfied with me. So i constantly work hard to give my100% and while doing that Im ignoring the fun proportion within me..I complicate simple situations..But I feel that now Im improving in managing time between my duty and my friends..But I still dont feel excited nor happy from inside.I feel that there is something missing in me.I lack something important,like a feeling, that I used to be driven by before is no more there…Im clueless about what it was and how to get it back..I will try to get back to being my old self but Im not sure if i will succeed.But I surely will try…Thanks again.

Warm Regards,

Crystal