Thank you for this insight Danny, thanks for the kind words.
I’m confident I will manage to become like you are now, completely at peace being single.
First of course I have to deal with my codependency issues and detach from my ex boyfriend.
I think for now this will keep me busy.

It sounds like a good explanation that you woke up angry because you actually didnt want to be there!
My ex, he is an avoidant personality. It doesn’t matter to him if we sleep apart or together, like I said he’s an extreme commitmentphobe so the times he sleeps with me is because he wants to…That way waing up angry because he doesnt want to be there, but his codependency makes him to be there doesnt really apply to him.

I have in fact in the past always resented him for being able to stay apart for days in row.

Stay strong and we will all get there!

Hugs,
Sercay