Thank you so much for your response. Apologies for not replying earlier I was having an emotional breakdown.
You’re right.. I am unwilling to let go. I’m not a very strong person. And despite what my boyfriend did, I do love him very very dearly. I keep thinking maybe I should give him another chance..
You’re right about him not being a child and me trying to control his behaviour. I never thought of it that way, will stop telling people when they’re wrong.

Have read your blog, thanks for the link!