Hi Jana

Thank you! I am working on the genuine happiness. I can safely say that you deserve it too. ❤️

Bear in mind that you have been so busy that you haven’t had the time for your usual self-care. I know how much that can weigh on a person. I think that you’re good at knowing what you need.

Please don’t worry about comparing yourself to others in terms of energy levels. Comparison is the thief of joy. If you must compare, try comparing with your past self. Not everyone is the same and it is okay to be different. You have been through so much! Tiredness is not such a bad thing in comparison to everything you have been through in the past. You are perfect as you are!

I say this not to dismiss your concerns. Just no good comes from worrying, especially when you need to relax. If you want to work on these things, it will probably take some time, so no rush.

Well done on overcoming the difficulties with the shaking! That must have been hard to go through having such a visible sign of your anxiety. It truly is a miracle that you fought hard and succeeded despite your fears that your body couldn’t be healed.

I have tics that only appear when I relax. On some days they are worse and on others they are better.

Wow tramal is a really intense medicine to take let alone for someone who had never taken any medication before. I think that experience would give me a lot of concerns about medication too.

I remember taking tramal when I was a teenager. The doctor prescribed it for a toothache and I didn’t know what it was. I immediately felt addicted to it lol and the doctor refused to prescribe more. For me, it removed all sensations from my body. I enjoyed that. But it is so addictive, that I have avoided all medicines like it now that I have a chronic pain issue. I’m fortunate to have had that experience as a teenager or I would probably be addicted to it right now.

Well the medicine I took was technically a blood pressure medicine. So it relaxes the blood vessels and such. You know how at times with anxiety the heart can race, pound and such. It basically just keeps that normal. It doesn’t technically have an effect on anxiety at all. But some people can experience increased anxiety because of sensations like that. I happen to be one of those people I guess.

I think that medicine has its place. But I do think that doctors need to be more careful with medicine than they are. If you don’t have to take anything that is a blessing. I have experienced the positives in that medicine saved my life. And some negatives when prescribed without caution. I do tend to research medicine before taking it as a result.

I think you are right. I was on some pretty strong mental health drugs for a few years. It took my system years to even partially recover from withdrawing. I had to relearn how to manage my emotions without the medication.

That being said, trauma also has had a massive impact on my health too. It is hard to say where which issue starts and the other stops.

Congratulations on getting through to the second round of interviews! I have faith that you will prepare well and try your best. That is all you really need to do. Good luck, not that you’ll need it. 😊

I hope you enjoy the alone time, though I’m sure you’ll miss your partner. It’s been lovely to chat and see you around again!

Love, peace and best wishes! ❤️🙏