Dear Marie:

It is a terrible thing to grow up without love, without loving attention and that is very common. You grow up without love and now you hate yourself. It is very common, parents not loving their children. The reasons are many, moslty parents were not loved themselves as children. I used to say that I carry the pain of generations. It is painful, so painful to just feel the hurt, so we prefer to feel anger, anger toward others, anger toward ourselves, hating ourselves. Anything but that weak hurt, needy feeling. Often it is scary to feel anger for parents, so we attack the weak party, the victim, that is, we attack ourselves. Yes, you can leave me your email address if you would like and I will write to you.
anita