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Thank u guys for responding to my story. I guess I’m just having so much trouble accepting this break up since I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. I have really put myself out there to try and show him that I care a lot and truly want to be with him. I’m just having trouble with the unanswered questions….lack of complete closure. He said we would talk in time but it seems like time is passing and he isnt looking to try and talk. The last time I went to look for him was at our work because I was returning some things that were left at my house….yes I know it was an excuse for me to talk to him. When he came out he had this look, I don’t know if it was anger, sadness, annoyed, or just like an “oh here she is again”. We started speaking and again he said he was not with anyone or looking and that he was going to focus on his son moving here since he felt he had neglected him over last couple of yrs…..he is a retired sgt from army. I also mentioned I was surprised he found apartment since he said he was moving back closer to where his kids were at, but he said they hadn’t called him back about a job. Anyway he said thank you for everything and that it was “fun” and that he didn’t want to lose my friendship because he liked talking to me and hanging out. Really? It’s like he poured more salt into the wound I already had. Well,, a friend of his arrived and I took it as a cue to leave. As I walked away I felt like I needed to turn…I did. And he was still by door looking at me the whole way as I walked away…I guess the look he had on his face is what’s has left me wondering. It’s hard to forget when he was living with me and every inch of this house has a memory, my kids constantly ask for him…yeah unfortunately kids are involved, and every car that looks like his seems to be around city when I’m out. I’m even paranoid to go out to store for fear of running into him…he moved close to where I live so now I don’t even wanna leave house unless its for work, and even that is a bad thing since we work at the same place… I know I seem like a mess but I’m glad I found this safe place to vent. E