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  • August 14, 2017 at 7:36 am #163854
    eight
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    Hi there all.

    I wonder if there is anyone who went through similar experience as I am now.

    Four days ago Ive entered to the unknown and it started to heal my past by energetically remind me of the traumas I went through when I was a child and then teenager.

     

    I’m 33 in few months  and crying like a baby. Still can hear the words he said when I got bitten by him, still can feel when he sat on my legs trying to unzip my trousers. Still can feel the pain when he banged my head on the floor. My dad was scared to come out to help me which of course lead to hide the pain deep within.

     

    Energetically I can still feel this and it’s been going on for over four days now. But I cry less which tells me that I most of it came to the surface.

     

    On the second day I panicked and went to my ex husband to be ( divorce in progress) and we had sex and I feel another deep regret going back to old pattern with the guy I have no feelings for.  I was scared and wasn’t sure what was going on. I thought if I’ll do this the trauma will go away. Stupid as it sound but I thought it might help.  The last time I had sex was over a year ago and we were at the edge of our marriage.

     

    I was wondering if there is anyone who I can talk to and possibly meet. I live in Leicester /UK.

     

    I am looking for someone who went through similar thing . Past traumas , fewer , burnouts , shaking, fear, anger , anxiety during this phase.

     

     

    Thank a lot for reading it anyway.

    Love and light for All

    August 14, 2017 at 8:02 am #163864
    Anonymous
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    Dear eight:

    You wrote that you are  “looking for someone who went through similar thing”-

    I am trying to understand what it is that you went through: when you were “a child and then teenager” someone bit you (“I got bitten by him”), unzipped your trousers, banged your head on the floor, said words to you, all that while your father heard the person saying and doing those things to you and not helping you?

    Is that what happened… are you referring to repeating sexual/ physical abuse by one person, and your father knowing but not getting involved?

    anita

    August 15, 2017 at 5:38 am #163998
    eight
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    Hi Anita

    Thank you for replying, I do really appreciate it.

    What I am looking for is a person who had a spiritual awakening and started to heal this life past traumas.  Someone who could bring more calming light to my situation. It is not about traumatic experiences I went through, its about the healing of the past, how long it could take to fully heal the fear and anger and all other deeply hidden feelings connected to this.   Just needed someone talk to who might have went through a similar healing process.

    Little upgrade: I went to see medium psychic and I’ve found out that it’s the next step of the awakening journey. I’ve meet my spirit guides which are my mum, great grandma and a gentleman- which could be my dad but I am not sure as the characteristic description does not fit to his.

    Anyway I feel much better today and one main trauma has almost been healed. I cried as much I could and allowed myself to feel it all over again. Now the other almost same traumatic experience is looping in my energy field which is not as scary as the first one but still – trauma is trauma.

    The sad part is that honestly is here no one who went through this, am I the only one ?

    Best regards. Love and light for all.

    GR8

     

    August 15, 2017 at 11:48 am #164094
    Anne
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    I have tried to spend my life dealing with the traumas dealt to me in my younger (& older) life. It sounds as though you may have unresolved anger tied with this ‘incident’ in your life. Toward whoever was responsible and more importantly your father, who allowed this to go on. You can not expect to just jump to resolution and acceptance until you complete the journey from the beginning and confront those demons hindering your healing. Only then will you be able to set foot upon the path of redemption for yourself and those you ‘love’.

    August 15, 2017 at 12:36 pm #164120
    Anonymous
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    Dear eight:

    You are welcome.

    If I understand you correctly, you are looking to connect with people who went through a spiritual healing from life traumas. By spiritual healing you mean healing involving non-physical energies, such as the spirit guides that you mentioned. You also mentioned seeing a medium psychic as your next step of healing, which you also refer to as spiritual awakening.

    I did not go through such healing, that is, healing based on spirit guides, nor did I meet with a medium psychic. I hope another member reading this may relate to your spiritual awakening and will reply to you.

    Best wishes to you!

    anita

    August 17, 2017 at 10:14 am #164432
    eight
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    Thank you Anna and thank you Anita for replying. I’m a bit better knowing that it’s a part of the process I must face myself.

     

    I’d like to add something I found on a website. Hopefully it will help me to forgive myself which is the hardest part of this healing.

    “All of us have experienced trial and pain. All of us are living life wounded and scarred. We learn to deal with our wounds and press forward, but whether we acknowledge it or not, wounds and scars change us. There are no perfect parents. There are no perfect friends. There are no perfect siblings or spouses. We live in an imperfect world with imperfect humans. We lash out and hurt others because we are broken and in need of healing.

    One of the most critical spiritual exercises we can undergo is allowing God to heal our past wounds and guide us to a lifestyle of forgiving present scars. Without healing and forgiveness, other people’s mistakes will affect our future. Without the inner working of the Holy Spirit, we will live in continual suffering from the sins of others.”

     

    Bless you all . Best regards and thank you once again.

    Gr8

    August 17, 2017 at 11:13 am #164442
    Anonymous
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    Dear eight:

    Thank you for sharing this quote. I do hope you forgive yourself and that your self forgiveness is complete. You wrote that forgiving yourself ” is the hardest part of this healing”. What I found out in my own experience is that the healing process itself, being on what I call The Healing Path earned me self forgiveness.

    anita

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