Dear anita,

so I started the new thread!

Today I went for a walk, cleaned the house, and painted for a bit. The physical activities kept me from ruminating too much and now I am feeling o.K. Way less anxious than a few days before! Hopefully, I can also finally sleep better now.

Goals for tomorrow:

– Again paint / Work for Uni

– Go for a walk or exercise

Maybe I will go meet a friend tomorrow too.

Until tomorrow!

Dear anita,

today I again did the things I wanted to do! I studied for uni and later did some yoga (only a few minutes). Without the thread, I certainly would have skipped the yoga. I already was thinking about just sleeping/ lazing around… But then I thought that I could do a few minutes and it worked.

This makes me feel so much better! I just wonder, can I keep it up? I already fear that in a few days, or weeks I will go back to my old ways. But no, I say to myself that I can do it!

It’s also nice, that I can see that I can stabilize myself and my emotions by my own efforts. Even though it would be nice to talk to a friend. But when I talk to them, I will also be more balanced, so the quality of the relationship could improve.

And I actually talked to some family members today. Recently, I am becoming more connected to them. Now I regularly talk to my sister, sometimes my grandmother. Today even my aunt called. It feels nice. I want to work on improving my relationships with people. Answer their messages more quickly and be more mindful.  Unlike the mistakes, I made in the past…

For tomorrow I have pretty much the same goals as today: go for a walk and study for uni. It’s simple but it seems to work!

Thank you for reading and I’m glad you liked my thread name!

Dear anita,

today I managed to go for my walk and work for uni. As of now, I have chosen more easy projects, but soon I will have to move on to harder ones.

For tomorrow I have the same goals as today.

This thread has been helpful so far. Otherwise, my own thoughts would have just tortured me nonstop. I still am feeling anxious, especially at night. But doing a least a little step a day really helps!

Until tomorrow!

Dear anita,

thank you for your post in my old thread! I read it and will reply tomorrow. Sometimes I know that I am just o.K. the way that I am, but when my thoughts become very negative, it becomes hard to remember!

Today I am feeling much better. I went to my therapist and she really helped me. For the first time in about two weeks, I am feeling more relaxed.

Later I went for a walk. I saw a Eurasian oystercatcher, which I had seen only once before. It’s such a strange bird with its long beak and it makes me laugh a little. It was such a nice and sunny day. People were ice skating on a small pond, lots were going for a walk.

At home, I cooked and cleaned my room and it took me too long. At least I worked for uni a bit today, for about two hours.

Then I talked to my new roommate and she seems to be a good person and very friendly. I like her and am feeling hopeful that we will get along well.

For tomorrow I want to draw and go for a walk again. Some yoga will also be good, as my back hurts.

See you tomorrow!