June 25, 2021 at 2:34 pm #381978
Accountable! Yes, I took an early walk- was back home at 9:15 am and it was already quite warm- now it is hot!
I was thinking during the walk, I think it was, if you will be taking time out of your thread during your vacation- after all, it’s a vacation and one needs not be Accountable on a vacation! I then thought to suggest to you that you decide, whatever suits you. So I see that you intend to post again “in 1-2 weeks”- that’s fine- post again whenever you decide.
I am sorry to read that you had a difficult night and that you hit yourself: I hope that you will not hit yourself ever again, and that you sleep a lot better tonight. I wish you safe travels and a calming, enjoyable vacation!
anitaJuly 13, 2021 at 9:01 am #382823
last weekend I returned from my travels, sorry I did not post before. Everything is fine with me, and how are you doing?
It was nice at the sea. We had mixed weather, which I like best. On two days we just were bathing at the beach, but more pure beach days would have been too much! On other days we went biking, one day my brother and I biked together 26 km to go to a museum. Also, I collected wild rose petals for my tea, went walking at the beach and on one day we went to an island.
At my parents place everything went good as well. I have collected more herbs for me tea and I even found wild mint! And in some places, where I suppose people had mowed the grass, smaller nettles grew, so I was able to make nettle bread. This time it turned out really well and soft. On another day we went hiking with my mother and on some rainy days I binge watched a TV show. Because of the rain the river was very full of water, so I did not dare to go to the stone in the river. But I am glad it rained, because during the draught of the last years, lots of trees died and the bark beetles did a lot of damage.
So now I am back at the city. Everything is o.K. The fist work day went o.K. and I am back at working on my projects.
At the moment I am not sure if I want to continue posting on the accountability thread every day. Often I worry about too much information being shared and also I still did not overcome the problems of procrastination. I want to think more about it. But I am very thankful for your help and support during all of these years!July 13, 2021 at 9:59 am #382827
Accountable! Welcome back from your travels, reads like you had a lot of lovely time, and I wish I could taste the soft nettle bread that you baked!
I am fine, thank you, but concerned with global warming and the start of the wildfire season this year. You thanked me, and I say: you are welcome. I read that you are not sure if you want to post on this thread again. If it is disadvantageous for you to post (on this thread, and/ or anywhere else), then.. you shouldn’t, and I am okay with your choice, whatever it may be. I wish you well and thank you for being here for as long as you have been!
anitaJuly 14, 2021 at 10:26 am #382857
good to hear that you are fine! The global warming is indeed concerning, the bark beetles and dried out trees reminded me of that. Here it is a bit rainier this year than the years before. Hopefully the wildfires will be less this year! I remember you sharing about them last year.
Posting here is not disadvantageous to me, it actually helped me to stabilize myself when I was in crisis mode during last winter. Back then I was feeling so terrible, like I was wrong and bad. Focusing on my goals instead of thinking of the past helped. And being able to talk to you also helped.
But my initial goal of being this productive person did not come true. It only worked in the beginning, then I fell back into my old habits. And sometimes I worry that someone who knows me could read all of my threads and then they would probably think of me as crazy. Or having so much info about me on the web makes me also feel a bit uneasy. I am not sure.
But I thank you for your well wishes and I hope you know that you helped me so much onmy path and on making progress!July 14, 2021 at 11:05 am #382861
I think that the likelihood of anyone who knows you irl to happen to be familiar with this website, and then to read your thread, is very unlikely, much more unlikely than someone irl identifying me: it didn’t happen in my case yet, as far as I know, even though I have been posting here every day, often many hours per day, for six years, using my real name. I am stating this because I hope that this bit of information will make you feel safer in regard to your fear of being identified.
If you no longer post, this thread will soon no longer appear on page 1, going back farther and farther, and the chance of you being identified by someone irl will be even lower than it already is.
Thank you for expressing your appreciation of me- you’ve always been kind and gracious. I appreciate you too!
It is my understanding that you wish to no longer post on this thread, and that you may not post again in these forums. Therefore, I say: goodbye, Dear Lily. I am glad I got the opportunity to know you and appreciate you for who you are, kind, honest, conscientious.. a good person who makes the world a bit better than it would be otherwise.
anitaJuly 15, 2021 at 12:55 pm #382924
thank you for your reassurance! As we know I have a slight tendency to worry too much… But yes, The thoughts do come up from time to time. But there is probably no reason to worry.
I am not entirely sure if I will get by completely without posting here ever again, but if this is the last time I post, I also want to say goodbye! Thank you for your kind words, it made me feel good to be reminded of my positive qualities. And thanks again for always listening and helping me and so many others. It is a good feeling to know that there is someone who will reply, even though the situation seems so messy and you fear that people will only judge you. But you listened and showed compassion! Yes, this was very important to me, to hear another perspective and honest opinion regarding my problems, instead of being ignored or talked about. Only other people, one of them you, looking at me with compassion helped me to start having more compassion with myself and understanding things better. You really put so much time and effort into your posts, often going through old threads again and again. You really care to help! You also are a good and honest person making the world better! Thank you for everything and if we don’t hear of each other again, I wish you well and a good and happy life!July 15, 2021 at 1:46 pm #382929
You are very welcome and thank you for your many kind words. I am delighted to read your recent post, very kind of you!
I want you to feel as comfortable as possible, and therefore- I am okay with whatever you choose: to post or not to post. If it is better for you to not post again, then be it. If you ever feel (tomorrow, next week.. next year) like posting again (in this thread or in a new one), and you feel that the benefit outweighs the discomfort- then please do post again, and I will be glad to reply to you every time you post.
Thank you for wishing me well, and I wish you the same!!!