Dear Christina:
I wish you well on your day 1 and every day after. The guilt you mentioned, I hope you don’t allow it to stand in your way of abstaining from alcohol. There are ways to reduce your distress (over the guilt and otherwise) other than drinking alcohol, such as taking long walks outside, other types of exercise, relaxing yoga and such.
Do post anytime you’d like, on your first day, second, and on. I would be here to reply to you. Hopefully, other members will as well.
anita