Here’s my little story:

So I met this guy three years ago while we were studying in uni. Let’s call him John.From the first time I saw him he became part of my life. It was always ‘him’. He felt for me as I felt for him.  There is always something in the air. 

Anyway, John started showing his interest in me but he was in a long term relationship so he didn’t make a move. A month later he broke up with his then-girlfriend. He did not make a move at that moment either and I thought that this was ok because he just got off a relationship and needed some time to clear his mind. 

For the next three months we talked occasionally and in my mind I was thinking that he might not want anything more to happen. So, I went on and started dating another guy. But before the relationship became exclusive, I went out with John, he kissed me and things went a bit further than that. We woke up the next morning and he we were cuddling when he said that i needed to make the next move. That I had to do more to show him I am interested too. Well, I didnt think that was the case, because he was the one who needed to move on from his past relationship and I was giving him space. Anyway I had to tell him that I was dating the other guy. He got disappointed but he didn’t interfere and he respected my choice.

Some months later, John found a new girlfriend and everyone was happy, a friend of mine told me that John was devastated for some time because I did not chose him and that he really liked me. As you can imagine this conversation is still on my mind two years after. 

However, I never stopped thinking about John. He didn’t stopped either. There is always something in the air. We know we are not Just friends. I broke up with my boyfriends and my feelings for John started to manifest lately. I cant do anything because he is in a relationship and I respect that. But I really think about him a lot of times during the day and I frequently find myself day-dreaming about the day he will come back to me and kiss me again.

So my question is, do you think Im really in love with John or I am obsessed because of an uncompleted love?  Is it just lust? Or something else? This is not keeping me back from my life though, I do find myself comparing him to other guys but I dont think that I cannot find a new and good relationship.

Thank you for your time! xxxx