Hi Elizabeth,
I know how you feel, I’ve been down that road many time, and right now I’m pulling myself back up again. First thing I want to say is that remember, everyone goes through these ups and downs in life, nothing is permanent, people have good days, bad days, good years, bad years, good decades, bad decades. So this is what we have to go through to learn our life lessons, even the most successful people in the world, have good days and bad days. So first you have to forgive yourself for it. Everyone starts to eat a lot when they are at school, i did too, because it helps for our brain to function faster, carbs help us to stay up all night to finish projects. So forgive yourself for it. And try to see it as an exciting new begging. You accomplished a great thing graduating from university.

Getting out of school for lot of us is very scary, because you don’t know what is going to happen. But this your task now, learning to be ok with uncertainty, glad that you have a home to stay and have your mother by yourside while you take care of yourself.

Then, try to remember what made feel good doing back then, did you do anytying that gave you joy? Do that, just to feel good, don’t wait for results, just do what makes you feel joy in your heart. I can hear from your heart, that you really do want to take care of yourself, and you are perhaps tired. So don’t give too much power to the ego that has taken over you. I know how it feels to be drained and tired. So allow yourself just to do nothing, only do things that make you feel goo d about yourself. If you don’t want to hang out with your friends, who cares. Maybe you need time to get back on track, when you are ready to face others you will.

See what would make you very happy right now and give you the nudge you need. One step at a time. Start easy and give yourself permission to enjoy not being a student for a while. Student life is hard, it drains everyone, so when we get out, you have no energy to deal with anything. I made a huge mistake of looking for job right away, I realized i should have given myself a month vacation no matter how hard it was financially, so I could rejuvenate. You need energy to get back to the real life.

Do that, you need to rejuvenate, that’s all.
About your mother, I really hope the results are good, and if she is sick god forbid, she has a wonderful daughter beside her… Remember, giving is always the best medicine in our lives, makes you feel better not matter what. Maybe your job right now is to take care of her. You can see that as a motivation to get healthier.

Hope this helps, I’m here if you need to talk more 🙂
Love
Danubelle
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