Dear Dee:

I read so far and will read more after you return to finish your thoughts.

anita

Dear Dee,

I too suffered from an ED (binging and purging mostly) for quite a few years. I’ve come to believe (and experts claim it too) that it’s related to the lack of emotional nurturance that we’ve received from our mother. And so we use food to fill that emotional hole within… You said something interesting:

I always figured after I turned 18 things would get better for me as far as meeting my fitness goals because I would no longer have to eat what my parents provided, or when they expected me to but I was wrong there.

Seems like you had an issue with eating the food that you parents provided, and also to eat when they demanded you to. Could you expand on that a little bit?

 

Hi Dee,

it’s not anita, it’s TeaK 🙂

It may very well be that being shamed about your body could have caused your ED. It seems that in a way, food was a forbidden pleasure for you, and you craved it. For me, food was almost the only allowed pleasure – my mother believed that I am not eating enough and should eat more, and once even force fed me because she was worried I was not getting enough nutrients. She cared a lot about feeding me properly (she would even get up early in the morning to cook a healthy meal for me before going to work), but didn’t care about feeding and nurturing me emotionally….

How was your mother with supporting you emotionally, having compassion and understanding for you, not judging you? Was she among those who criticized you for your body weight?

My friend..

 

My name is Wind. I share some ideas with you. Only to invite your curiousity and quiet contemplation.

 

What is the root purpose of food?

Only for the body can function equal with the Law of the Body.

 

What is the purpose of the life?

To grow up your Soul and pay everything equal with the Law of your cause and effect.

 

What are the obstructions that block you from growing up your Soul and life?

 

Some examples..

 

Attachments to the appearance of the life by emotion.

 

Comparing yourself to imaginary standards.

 

Getting caught in limited habits that keep you living like a mouse running on the wheel.

 

My friend..

 

Your habit with food is only the appearance of your difficult.

 

But the cause of your behaviour comes from where and what?

 

Emotions attached to habits create many behaviours.

Emotions from holding onto past situations and difficulties create many behaviours.

Emotions attached to the fear of letting go create many behaviours.

Emotions attached to false ideas and thinking create many behaviours..

 

Which all create.. equal effects.

 

Change effects we must change the behaviour.

 

Changes to behaviour need courage and a clear purpose.

 

You eat to much, knowing that you will pay an effect is no different to someone who smokes or drinks or sex or shops or drugs or steals… They are all different in appearance but all follow the Law of passion. Desire.

 

So I share.. Clearly and straight..

 

The life does not destroy people.

People volunteered to destroy themselves.

 

The life does not save people.

People save themselves.

 

Meaning..

 

Only YOU can either destroy or save YOU.

 

Choice depends upon your level of courage and self determination to put down and escape your attachment to REPEAT.

 

Without purpose in the life we can be like a raft just drifting about in the Ocean.

 

Look for a purpose and courage to focus on the purpose with confidence and faith and the path of escape will begin to appear.

 

You must choose my friend.

Or coming and writing here will become your next habit. And all habits are a prison for the Soul.

 

Keeping of emotions attached to past situations or the worry of the future from imagination are a common cause of suffering and delusions.

 

When you have the courage to face to face with everything that is your life and begin clearing and cleaning all the dirt from inner mirror. You will begin to discover your bright original nature inside again.

 

Emotions of any for of attachment are like dark clouds that block the light of the Sun. But.. Just because not seen. Did not mean it was lost.

 

Discovering your purpose in the life is your Duty. That is the purpose of each Soul that comes to the life.

 

Without the body the Soul has no occasion to practice grow up and pay everything.

 

Soul and body must together like positive and negative spaces. Must together like friends. If you only see your body from a physical View. You will always be chasing some for of delusion and create confusion within your Soul.

 

My friend..

 

Try to see the purpose of the Body from the corner of awareness and Wisdom.

The Soul must have the clean house to practice grow up. To overcome everything in the life. Must respect the house until the end my friend.

 

Otherwise.. You do not mistake with anyone in the life.. Only with yourself.

 

I tell you..

 

You must courage to stand up inside you and begin take purposeful action.

Saying that you know. That you understand. Has no value at all. How many people said they know?. They understand?

 

But after they said.. What did they do?

 

The value of understanding or knowing only appears in the practice. The action of doing.

 

Otherwise we become lost in the spinning cycles of stuck in cliche words..

 

My friend..

 

Stop wasting time. Come back to your purpose for being born. You have difficulties you must overcome equal with the Law your Souls cause and effect.

 

Meditation can help clear and clean everything inside when regularly practiced.

That could be something you could look at discovering.

 

When we lose sight of the original purpose of the life. We can fall into all sorts of dark habits.

 

The only true success in the life is when you win yourself. Overcome yourself.

 

Each person must become the brave warrior inside. You. You must choose my friend.

 

You must courage to see yourself and accept everything that you are unconditionally and without judgement. Without discrimination against yourself.

 

I have travelled through many dark forests of the life and visited many Hells..

 

Purposeful Action is the path of escape.

 

Courage in each step. Patience. Forgiveness. Purpose. And as you begin to move freshly with the life again.. True faith appears from your own sincere experience.

 

I don’t share to try save you my friend.

 

I only put for you some ideas. Like strange rocks on the path of your life.

 

To curious, see, pick up, understand and practice.. Always depends on you.

 

Keep going my friend. You must sincerely in each step. Sincere and self determination.

 

Then I can tell you.. From the sincere behaviour.. With time..

 

Like a fhe time everything will open.

 

Courage. The life always takes place from within.

Its ok.

Thank you so much.

 

Wind.