I know that, and I’m trying. He also said that he doesn’t want to cease communication and he would like to meet up as well when I get back home. I’m thinking maybe I’ll ask him how he is doing when a week has passed, since he said he wouldn’t mind.

The reason I’d like to wait for him is because he is a great person and I love him with all the faults he has, and because our relationship was something I have always dreamed of, honest and caring, and we could always discuss everything honestly with each other. It’d hurt a lot if I was waiting and eventually we couldn’t end up together, because right now he isn’t even sure if he wants to stay in the country or not, but if I decide that I will try to move on it’d mean I’d lose the last hope to be with him.

Another thing is that I’ve also been having some issues and he thought this would be good for both of us, since we can’t really support each other right now. I said I wish I could help him, and he said that maybe I could when I’m better myself, and this really gave me motivation to work on my own problems now, but it’s really hard to be apart.

I’ve been diagnosed with depression before I’ve met him and at that time I was already covering up from it, I think being apart from him for so long kind of triggered something similar now. I’ve been consulting with a psychologist lately and honestly I’m feeling better already now, than the past few weeks when things just weren’t right with him, but I still have things to work on now.

He is planning to go to see a doctor about his medications soon, and his anxiety isn’t mostly about the relationship but his life overall right now. It’s a bit like he is having an existential crisis because religion has been a big part of his life and now he feels like he doesn’t know who he is anymore.

That makes sense. I’ll try my best to work out my issues, it will probably help me keep myself distracted as well. Thank you very much for your replies, you really helped me a lot! I wish you the bests