I was sober for almost 6 years and last night I got drunk. I work 2 jobs and for one of them I manage a home for people new in sobriety. My job and my living situation depend on my continued sobriety and I have no where else to go. My children and I cannot afford our own place and I dont know what to do. I dont plan on drinking again but the guilt is eating me up and I cant tell anyone. Worse yet I feel as though I cannot go back to my AA meetings because living a lie there and not claiming a newcomer chip would kill me. The right thing to do is go back to meetings and ask for help but I feel like I cant without becoming homeless and looked down upon. I joined this because I just had to tell someone, not really for advice. Thank you for listening to my shame all you kind strangers
You wrote that you are not here for advice. I do hope you resolve this distress you experience. I do hope you arrive at some peace of mind on the matter!
The people I admire most are those like you who make mistakes but then get back in the game, try to improve each day, keep fighting the good fight. I hope you can let go of the guilt. It’s already served its purpose and is of no use to you anymore.