Its scary to learn that our destiny completely rests in our own hands, but it does. It is up to ourselves to live the lives we want to live. I want to be a writer, but no amount of wishing can make me a writer. I have to do the work to be a writer and even if I do write and I think it is great I have more work to do get others to read it and like it. If I’m not making money writing then I need to have a job in order to support myself and I can write in my off time and then really writing is more of a hobby then. I feel some sort of despair to think I have to waste a 1/3 of my days working jobs I don’t want a future with while I could be writing because I like writing and it takes a lot of time to write, but I also have other priorities in my off time I barely have time to work out anymore (my other past time.) I’m not sure you can relate to this, but we can’t always do what we want because there are a lot of things we need, food, shelter, bills etc… If I start to think about it I feel like I am drowning or trapped in a little box suffocating, but there are some positives. At least I have a job, I can write as a hobby, learning new things gives me inspiration, and I feel that I am serving others so I am helping them even if it isn’t the way I want. I am optimistic though that if I keep working and making goals for myself, then maybe I won’t be a writer, but maybe some good will come of it even if it is only a better philosophy of life!

You only lose your “free spirit” and creativity if you let it go, if you listen to other people who don’t value it. Don’t stop looking at the world the way you do, there is inspiration in everything. As long as you set aside time to tend to it, you can work hard at a “real” job and come home create the most beautiful art. It would be ideal to find a job where you can use and grow that part of you, but that can be difficult in an entry level job and especially with the competition there is for jobs. I can only think of all of the creative minds that were able to create some great work even though they were in dead end jobs, Einstein worked in a patent office, J.K Rowling, if you look into the history you will find many people that lived extraordinary lives and were still seen to have real jobs and there are even more every day people. Its only normal to feel anxiety over it, it feels as if a very important part of you is being killed, but as long as you work to keep that part of you alive it will still be there!

Thanks everyone.

Hi Jo

No one is going to take you out of the bad place you are in. You need to do it yourself, dear friend.

I attach a you tube of a meditation, which will help in bringing more positivity into your life temporarily. Could you please try it at least once to see its benefit ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b05pGueHux8

Just close your eyes in a dark room and let it work. You can think as much as you want during the process. It is only 10 mins.

Blessings,

Jasmine