For as long as I can remember, I’ve tried to seek meaningful relationships. I felt the current ones I had were only hurting me but I keep going back to them because I can’t make new ones. I say that about my current friends because I’ve always tried to be the best friend I can to them. I’m always here when they need someone to talk to or if they ever need any favors- I will do it for them without question. But I never felt the feelings were mutual and I’m emotionally drained. I read many self-help books on how to be more sociable so I can at least put myself out there but when I do, it seems like people did not want to remain friends with me? Over the past two years, I’ve met a lot of people through my new job and my boyfriend (he has a big social circle and family). At first, everyone was friendly and did reach out to me and I reciprocated the same attention back because I knew they were a bunch of great people and I wanted to surround myself with people like that. But as time goes by, it seems like no one seems to want to interact with me as much. I’m not sure if I am doing anything wrong because I havent heard anything negative from anyone so I’m judging it off their actions. I genuinely go into these relationships with the intention of being nothing but good friends with them. Every new relationship I make, I feel like they quickly die off- one after another. Thats why now, every time i meet someone new, I already know it won’t work out. I’m starting to think it is me. I just wish I could ask someone I know what they honestly think of me so I can fix it. I’m not out to get anyone and I always have good intentions for everyone I meet and for everyone in my life so I’m just really confused why I feel everyone I meet doesn’t care for me or like me. A big example is my little sister. I’ve always been there for her- even when shes 6 hours away- if she needed me I will drive to her without a second thought. I made sure that she has everything she needs up at school and I’m always here for her when she needs someone to talk to. I even help her pay for housing expenses etc etc. It really is unconditional love that I have for her. I will do anything for my sister. But recently, we had a big fall out and I told her I wasn’t helping paying her rent anymore because I didn’t feel appreciated by her enough. I felt like she was sometimes rude to me and ignored me when I tried to talk to her. I felt bad that I approached her pretty defensively but now she won’t talk to me again. After all I did for her, I felt that argument shouldn’t have been the deciding factor for our relationships. It made me question did she really just tolerate me because I was always there to help her and now that I said id stop supporting her living expenses, she can cut me off? I feel used.