I wrote a post on here a few short weeks ago, saying how I had developed feelings for a friend and I wasn’t sure how I should go about telling him. Well, it turns out that the feelings are reciprocated-which I sort of expected.

Let me start by saying that he is a great guy. He is kind, understanding, gentle, honest-and would do anything for me. He is communicative and open. He is reassuring.He is patient. He understands me and I understand him. These are important traits that I look for in a relationship..and well, I’ve never met a guy who was like this.

In past relationships, I’ve always played the chase. I’ve dated guys who were emotionally unavailable and I have been in love with guys who were emotionally unavailable, which only lead to getting hurt. I know that he wants to start a relationship but I’m not used to the way he treats me, because he actually treats me well! I’m frustrated with myself because I don’t want to play games and I am confused why I feel the way that I do. I enjoy spending time with him and being close to him, but there’s still a part of me that feels completely shut down.

All of the men that have ever been in my life have hurt me-starting as a child, with my father. I’m afraid of completely letting my guard down again and letting someone in. I also don’t like opening up to others because it creates an uncomfortable feeling.

I guess, my question then is, is what I’m feeling normal? I am aware that I have to work on this, but I’m just not sure how.