Hi my name is Daniela and I recently just got out of a relationship. I’m not sure if it was a good idea or not. But here’s my story. So about 2 weeks ago I was madley in love with my boyfriend I have never been happier I dreamed about marrying him one day and having a future. And suddenly the day after I woke up and I didn’t feel the same way about him anymore. I know I loved him but my feelings wernt there. It killed me to feel this way because I felt like everytime I told him I loved him I felt like I was lying to him. I told him about it and he said just don’t think about it. I tried but it was to hard. I would hang out with him and at first I didn’t feel it when I was with him till he left. But days later I started to feel that way when I was with him.

I was very confused myself because I felt like it wasn’t fair for him for me to lie to him. But I also didn’t want to let him go. He was the best boyfriend you can think of he did absolutely everything right. He changed so much so we can be together. And it hurts me so much letting him go. Ever since I started feeling that way I’ve lost pleasure in things I love doing most like going out and even listening to music. After I told him about us being friends i went to see him the next day and i realized that i shouldnt have left him I had made a mistake but part of me wasn’t sure it was a mistake. On my way I realized we needed to break up. I know I broke his heart even more because before I was able to see the happiness in his eyes after I told him I wanted him back and that just keeps replying in my head. After we broke up I was devastated. I woke up every morning wondering why I felt this way. I hate myself so much for how I’m feeling. Why am I feeling this way he did nothing to me but love me unconditionally and all I did in return was break his heart. I miss him and the things we used to do. I miss the Corney things he would say and the way he would tak to me. I’ll never find somebody  who treated me like how he did. I regret losing him so much because I miss hanging out with him and his hugs and his laugh. I know if I found somebody who treated me the same I wouldn’t be happy because it’s not him. I planned my future with him. And I’ll never forget him. I miss hearing his laugh And saying I love you after cuz of something I said. I want to go back to him with all my heart. But I’m scared what if those feelings I had for him don’t come back. What if I don’t feel the same anymore once I’m with him and I have to break his heart all over again. i Really need some advice on what I should do. This is the love of my life I lost.